I wonder should i write bout u?

I wonder whether i should start writing about u again tesh. Im not sure but think i should. I havent been showing much concern for u lately. Ji hoe is coming back and could give me some of his smart poems. Or something u know? Yeah in fact i'll write bout u now, Teshya is the most wonderful,bestest,beutiful,tomboyish,perfected girl in the world. Hahaahhahaahahah!!!!!!!!LOL X)
U know im not kidding one bit. And i meant everything i said bout u. But still im not ready to love or kiss or do those lovey dovey stuff yet. So all ican do is keep close to u when i have the time at CNIS, and when i leave to go to ICS i will miss u greatly. But still i will keep in touch with u by evry eman possible. I know i dont have much time left at CNIS. But i wish i could stay longer so i can be with u. Sadly its not possible. I just hope that i can stay at the status, u like me a bit untill i get to see u again somehow after i leave cnis. i just hope

Soccer, the pros mix with da pros

Today i manage to get to taste again what real soccer was like, i was playing at soem marine parade HDB field. the goal post were long but short. Anyways i played with some malays and a english dude. 5 on 5. In the end i had to go. SO sad i only palyed 10 mins. Two shots, and just outside the post. I did a curl but it missed. I have finally been able to get to play with the kind of players i used to play against in my old school. I am so happy. No offence and im not being proud or anything, But me and one of those players can beat the whole of CNIS squad, really. REally!!!
not kidding at all.

NEW POST AND PIC ON MY OTHER BLOG

HEY yall sup, check out my other blog u all know the name, ijustdongivafck.blogspot.com. Theres a new pic 4 the head and a new post im not going to delete it i guess.Its only a blog i use when im angry or feeling ok. So thast all

trying Hardest to do wat u like.

Im really trying my hardest now to get Tesh to like me. Its hard to get the girl u admire to like u. But the harder it is the harder u play and the more challenging it is . The more challenging the more fun, and usually if the girl is good she will make it hard for u to get her in a right way i think. Like getting u to work hard in chinese which im doing now. Doing more things that will help u get her and her improve your studies life etc. I just want u to know Teshya that ur the most perfect girl in the world to me, well kinda cause ur the first girl i ever liked, and im trying real hard to stick with u on good terms. Even if i am im tryng my best not to fall apart. If u want me to stop playing soccer i will, u want me to stop hanging with the boys, ok anything that u dont like be striaght foward and i will change it. Like how u asked me to change my attitude towards chinese right? so now know speak to me and ill change.

Chinese Spelling

Man i was studying for my chinese test, i am trying my hardest but its really hard. I just wish i had time to study for todays chinsee test. Its so much easier than tommorows. i JUST HOPE I DONT GET LESS THAN 60!!! May God help me remember my words. YEAH! i hope im ready for tommorow i love it now i feel better when i complete my homework. Wat i think affected my thinking of my life musta been my homework. We suffer from work overload!!! I hope it stops soon, otherwise ill die!

Why am i begining to hate my life?

why the heck am i beginning to hate my life? Is it cause homework is pilling and im getting stressed. Is it cause im so goofed up. Or maybe its cause i found out i dont actually love tesh just like her. I hate it when i feel sad but im going to have to be more sober. I have to behave more mature. I have to be real nice. Is it cause i have started swearing, or is it cause i know i suck in being nice to girls. Why do i feel so depressed and sad. Gloomy is wat i have become and i think it would be best for me to stay that way. Ill just mind my own business. Then maybe i will feel much better cause i wont need to feel bad about other people feel sry for them or do stuff for other people. I dont know wat the hells my prob. But i hope i will find out soon.

What am i thinking!

I have made up my mind for the final time. I do not need anyone to love. I dont need Teshya to waste my time on. I dont need to spend time to talk about ji hoe and meliza shaun or finn. I dont even think i need a new crush at my age. I've realised that i'm wasting my time on Teshya on other stuff. I might be wrong as this is the first time i ever have liked a girl. But i dont think there is any more use in going after girls. I really feel hurt by wat im typing now, but i know that all boys who have crushes are just dreaming. Will u ever get far with the girl u like? Its just a matter of time before u get rejected or pushed away. Im renlightened i just hope i can find someone who really cares bout me in the future. Then i hope i can stay with that person for the restof my life. I now know that at this age love or fancies are just fake! the reason most boys like ji hoe go for girls is cause they are pretty. I am not that type and nvr will be. i like attitude not looks, if a girl has the attitude looks and intelligence, god be praised for her. but never say u love someone because u like their looks, That is pure lust. Either than that i have nothing else to write. I hope evryone would understand

Take away my pride but not my rep

I heard from my mom that ms sunwei gave her a call. she is discussing with other teachers if i should go on the china trip. Im like dammmit u can take my pride away and kill it but i will hate ms sunwei for life if she ever tarnishes my face value or reputation.Im just saying Ms sunwei is really cruel to me, she is trying to punish me in every single way, If i know wat to do may god forgive her wicked soul. tarnishing my rep is one thing i would nvr do i would punish someone but nvr make anything personal, if ms sunwei wants it personal, Fine!!! bring it on ms sunwei just bring it on!

iam human not an angel

thats it ms sunwei has hurt my feelings for chinese and so on, im not gonna write bout todays incident here go to my new blog. Its , ijustdongivafck.blogspot.com

A really nice attitude or a human attitude that is the question.

I am really confused on whether i should have a angel attitude which many people take advantage of, or a human attitude which protects ur own intrest not others. I have decided that i would like to be myself, the real myself. my mom adn family have done alot to change my attitude to studies and people, fighting and more. But i feel nothing helps, with the likes of ji hoe around i feel pissed and angry treat people normally or nicely they call u a bully. you did something on accident they call u a headkicker, laugh at a joke and teachers mark u a troublemaker. the teacher wont let Ali sit with the boys cause they think im going to teach him bad stuff? well fine if u say so! if u teachers say i teach poeple bad stuff im bieng seperated from my fiends during recess, called a bully! Alright shitbags go on! if u say i am, i am just watch how much worse i can be. Just watch!

I wanna fight!!!

I gotta try out my moves. I need to train! I just fought with my bro jeremiah. He kicked mmy arse. I need to train! Tommorow whoever wants to have a free no hard feelings fight tell me i am up for it!!

Fighting rocks or not?

well i think i am starting to like fighting, i dunno it feels good to kick and punch. It really feel good i really feel like fighting alot! I dunno why but as god creates us man with a conscience so im not sure whether i should. It would feel good to kick some ass! But somethings not right in this. maybe i might satrt swearing crazily agin if i satrt i dunno. I have to try it out. XI

Another meeting on a new monthX(

stupid meetings, i hate those meetings its making the school like some booth camp,"ohh u cant do this and u cant do that and blah blah on." Ms Nancy goes on and on like some grandma, which she is. And they go u boys know not to call name s and blah on, Bugger off Ms Nancy!get the facts right wats the problem with laughing at jokes, i mean like its not my fault if i crack up at some joke and amir gets angry and hits ji hoe and crys cause he hurt his hand on ji hoes knee cap. I mean cmon u cnat be serious pointing at me? cmon u gotta be kidding.