Why am i begining to hate my life?

why the heck am i beginning to hate my life? Is it cause homework is pilling and im getting stressed. Is it cause im so goofed up. Or maybe its cause i found out i dont actually love tesh just like her. I hate it when i feel sad but im going to have to be more sober. I have to behave more mature. I have to be real nice. Is it cause i have started swearing, or is it cause i know i suck in being nice to girls. Why do i feel so depressed and sad. Gloomy is wat i have become and i think it would be best for me to stay that way. Ill just mind my own business. Then maybe i will feel much better cause i wont need to feel bad about other people feel sry for them or do stuff for other people. I dont know wat the hells my prob. But i hope i will find out soon.